Wall

I feel like there’s a wall inside me that I can’t get past, even though I know exactly what’s behind it. It’s not a mystery. I’m aware of it. But every time I get close, I feel anxious. And if someone asks me about it, I can’t seem to talk about it without crying.

Sometimes I wonder why knowing what’s there still isn’t enough to move through it — and whether this is something I can push through on my own, or if I need help to finally face it.